hard conversations and no good solutions

It is really hard to see your own child affected by your actions, especially when you feel helpless to change things to protect them. Anything I can do at this point in time is going to be difficult for the child. Inaction is as harmful as some more drastic solutions. I'm torn, resigned and see no good options. I cannot change how my partner sees the world and what she does. I tried for way too many years and nothing ever changes. Somehow I cling to a hope that one day it will get better but I think I'm lying to myself and I'm scared of doing something that cannot be undone, like moving out. In the end I think it is my fault that I enabled my partner to behave the way she does. I thought that talking about it was enough to make a change. 20 years later, there is no change and my kids suffered because I didn't step in early enough putting a stop to it. Can I do it now?


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